Can we say that Fan is searching for home? If we are then we also have to say the people of B-Mor are searching for home, for this is really their story.

We know only what a person (in the collective voice of all) tells us about Fan’s story. We cannot assume that person knows anymore than what they’ve heard and that is never the whole story. After Fan left, something in the people of B-Mor clicked. Whether that is good or bad we don’t yet know. What we do know is they are searching for something. Why else do we tell stories, true or not?

They tell this story of a woman “looking” for her love, who she considers home.

But can we say that Fan is really looking for Reg? Do we really think he is home to her? Lets think about that for a minute. He held her hand during movies and is told to be sweet and kind. But when we look at Fan’s actions toward Reg they are far less love then we think should be, especially for someone looking for home in him. But then again how can we say she is indeed looking?

Looking is not the word we can use for what she was doing. Looking implies actually doing something. She did not care enough to look for him. At least not from what we know. What we know is that Fan, right out of the gate… literally,  was ok with drifting. She was picked up by Quig and Lauren and stayed with them driving. Although that can be considered looking to an extent. But then we run into the carnival family, and they want her to stay with them. And as we all know, she wanted to stay as well.

Fan herself isn’t a bad person, she is actually a very selfless girl. She only decided to leave when she found out that Quig and Laureen would die. And with Miss Cathy, she was content to stay until she found out she’d be living in a room for the rest of her life and not leaving, but even then she wasn’t in a rush. But then that strengthens our point. If Reg was indeed what she was looking for, would she not want to leave both those places?

If things progress the way they are now Fan will never find Reg. Stumble upon him maybe, but find him? Definitely not. But then, we start to question if that is even the point of her leaving in the first place.

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