English 245: Modern Fiction

a collaborative exploration of pervasive tropes, themes, and concepts in contemporary fiction




Nell I don’t know if your still reading this but I hope you are. I’ve been trying to email my final for days now and it keeps either being sent back or I don’t hear from you. I am panicking you haven’t gotten my final and now it’s late and I don’t know hat to do…  Please tell me you got at least one of my emails, and I sent another today (Saturday). I don’t know what else to do… I haven’t been able to make time to get to BBC…. I don’t wanna let this wreck my grade jut cause my PC is being difficult… -Ashley Martsen (I’m so sorry my final is technically late)


The project… sigh….

In a very typically Ashley Fashion, I worked very hard on my project, am finished with it early, and am very happy with it. The problem? Also in typical Ashley Fashion my family all thought I was crazy when explaining what I was doing. The look  my mother gave me reminded me I need to explain what this “thing” is. It’s not just an arts and craft project… I’m actually counting on Nell understanding it to get a good grade. Sigh… Too bad there isn’t a way to give Nell a separate piece of paper explaining what I was doing. So yay for the justification that does that! But then I go to write it and realize I sound daft.

So here I am trying to justify something I’m proud of, but doesn’t look like a traditional college project, and I’m panicked that I sound like I don’t know what I’m doing. If anyone has done their justification, or has any advice? This was supposed to be the easy part… sigh…

Defending Amy

Amy is a shallow, spoiled, psycho bitch. But in class I feel like I don’t hate her as much as I should. I feel like my dislike of Nick is wrong, and Amy is the sole issue here. So since I don’t feel confident arguing my point in class, partially cause I feel like I get told it’s wrong a lot, I’m going to here 🙂

First of all, Amy is highly highly damaged. Which isn’t an excuse, but it explains a lot. She really should never have been born, as stated by the fact that she is the 8th and only non dead child. This effected her parents, and possibly was where Amazing Amy came from. They had dreams of what their child would be even they didn’t have one, and didn’t really adapt this image to how an actual child behaves. And Amy’s parents were very very very very clear about what they expected, though the books. Which Amy could never live up to. While her parents told her that it had nothing to do with her, that’s laughably see-through.

So Amy grew up never being what her parents wanted, then in high school and beyond she still wasn’t what boys want. She could pretend to be the Cool Girl (as she calls it), the girl that we all know doesn’t exist. Some parts? Sure. But no one is exactly like what guys want (Even if they all want something different, the perfect person will never ever exist). So Amy finds this guy, someone who is also faking it to be liked. So she falls in love, and then she does what fakers never do. She stops faking. And low and behold, Nick stops liking. She thought she found someone who might actually like her, and he doesn’t. He can’t stand her. And instead of being honest, he finds a young, not too bright, ALIEN FUCK DOLL. She finds out as she goes to try and make up, to try to help fix things. And he just goes to fuck this girl he doesn’t know, while she is standing there waiting.

So is Amy innocent, hell no! She’s totally crazy. But I also don’t believe she deserves so much hate. Nick made his share of screw ups, and he did the same thing as Amy. He lied about who he was and then was surprised to learn that Amy wasn’t what he thought. He wanted so bad for people to think of him a certain way he ruined any chance at it. He didn’t frame anyone for murder, but he is not the victim. They both are the victim and the offender, and both blame the other. This happens until one of them snaps, in this case Amy in all her planning ways.

Yell away if you disagree, Nick Fucked up and Amy did too. They both suck

English Teachers are Snobs(Sorry Nell)

I know not all English Teachers are snobs, and Nell certainly isn’t. But I can’t help but think that a lot of them are. My sister was telling me about her teacher (she’s a high school-er) who was having them talk about characters they liked and admired, but everyone in the class was talking about newer books. She apparently told them they need to talk about “real” books, which I disagree with.

Just because a book isn’t old, or isn’t considered a classic doesn’t mean it isn’t important. Obviously books have a lot of pull, influence, and are simply fun. But my sister’s teacher has on multiple times implied that unless it’s a classic, then it’s not worth reading. Be aware that I got all of this through my sister, so I can’t be sure that it’s exactly true. But I’ve met plenty of English teachers like this. Am I the only one who’s met people like this, please tell me I’m wrong about my generalization. I so wanna be wrong…


Help? So confused!?

Ok so I went to watch Master of None and there wasn’t any dialoge? I could see the mouths moving and hear the background noise, but there were no voices?!? I have no idea what is going on and I’m a third of the way through?? Is this how the show is?!?!


Ok so I already finished the reading for next class (I had to force myself to put the book down lol) and I was oddly fascinated with the Girls eyes. Which were said to be flat on the bottom to look more “anime”, which reminded me of Valeria Lukyanova and Anastasiya Shpagina. If you haven’t heard of them they are two girls from over seas who embody the “ideal” beautyAnastasiya-Shpagina-Valeria-Lukyanova but looking at them I find slightly unnerving. (I tried to find Asians like Fan and the Girls, but these two were the only ones I felt conveyed how I imagined the girls…) I cannot speak for other people, but this is how I imagined the Girls in the story, like human dolls. No part “unperfect” but together makes one question if they are looking at something normal. (I am done comparing the two girls in the picture to the Girls in the story BTW) I feel like the Girls that Fan meets are even more doll like, they almost believe they are dolls.

Each one has a story they play out in their head. They sleep in tiny beds, stay in the same room, brush hair, oogle at the new doll (Fan) and just basically do whatever Miss Cathy seems to think a little girl should do. I don’t think Miss Cathy thinks of them as daughters, and more like living dolls. Thoughts??

Sad on Tuesday :'(

I was doing the reading and I kept getting excited about talking about it, then I remembered we don’t have class on Tuesday… So now I’m sad…. I never thought I’d miss class lol.

Also as I’m still trying figure out my project I was gonna throw out an idea and hope ya’ll can give me feedback? What if I wrote like a short murder mystery on Death of the Author? Like kinda a meta/newspaper/short story type thing. I think I’ve got a cool way to do it, but I hope it doesn’t sound like a stupid idea

Project: Let’s brainstorm?

OK so I saw in class that I’m not the only one who has no ideas, or still isn’t sure. So let’s brainstorm!

My only ideas are maybe something about the “idea” of what an author is supposed to be and how that changed, or maybe something about like Doctor Who and other shows that have been around awhile and therefore have changed with the times… But I don’t know if these are good, or how to go about either, or what format I’d do or anything.

I hope ya’ll who are stuck like me can help, and I’ll try to help too

Why wait so long!?

First I’d like to yes, I’ve got no ideas at all for the project. Which the proposal is dew Thursday I believe. So naturally when I sit down to try and figure it out again… I somehow think about everything else. Specifically the pile of eight books next to my bed I want to read still, not including the ones for school. Here’s a basic transcript of where my thoughts went from there

Me: You should really get on that, you need to manage time better

I: I want to go snowboarding, there’s fresh snow

Me: School you dummy, you need to finish school work first

I: I’ve got time, I’ll even bring it there

Me: NO! You have to do it now, look at everything you haven’t done! All those books you should be reading! Get to it! You don’t have time to waste! GO GO GO!!

Needless to say, when I try to be “on top of everything” I get stressed out. Especially when I look at all my homework. So sitting here (still without an idea for the project -_-‘) all I can think is I wanna start the next book for class…. or the next book in a series. But the classic books I’ve never read, but want to; they can wait. Why? Why am I in such a rush to read what’s new, but the old stuff can wait forever? Not that it makes a difference, but why is it the older the book, the longer I feel I can put it off? Does any one else do this? Am I the only one? Why did I waste so much time typing for a point so little?

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